tugging at my hair
starring at my watch
lost in the sea around me
waiting to be saved

confused about who i am
wondering if someone will come
don't leave me alone
I never wanted to be this cold

nightmares keep me awake
wile i count toward the time i can smile
loosing myself to the darkness
but its not who i was
this is not who i am!!

but can i change it now?
is it to late?
questions fill my mind
answers seem light years away

surrounded by anger and hate
emotions locked up
scared to share
what would they think if they knew who i am?
all these thoughts make nightmares worsen
head becomes heavier and the burden inflates